Sunday, June 15, 2008

Lonely, sad, needy.

Another sad, Sunday afternoon. R has gone which is probably a blessing for both of us, since I am convinced I am annoying hell out of anyone I'm with and at least I can be miserable on my own with no one to account to for it.

The tendency to compare myself and my lot constantly with others is still there, playng havoc with my head. This week at least I am less inclined to blame R and project my stuff on to him, and instead am directing my ire at myself.

The self-obsession does not make me exactly riveting company no doubt, and the amount of comments on my blogs has dwindled from few to nil accordingly which feeds right into my sense of loneliness.

Overwhelmed by losses. Exhausted, and after a night's sleep wake up more exhausted still. It's almost two calendar months since I became ill. I guess I've just got to give it time.


Mental Patient said...

I am sorry to hear you are having a difficult time of it at the moment.

Thanks for linking to my site. I have linked back using the phrase "On the road back". Is that correct or should I use, "Am I still ill"?

Zoe said...

Thank you so much Mental Patient. Sounds funny saying that! I think I noticed you haven't posted in a while? Hope you are OK, I really enjoy reading your posts. I prefer to use 'Am I still ill' for now. Zoe