Friday, November 30, 2007

So quiet here it's embarrassing...

Yes it's reminiscent of a nun's cell in this blog, just the sound of my tapping on the keyboard, echoing off the walls...

Well, no I'm not a nun, though I might as well have taken a vow of celibacy for all the action I'm getting in that department. But you know what? I'm too busy to care most of the time. In my driven little way I've been running around all week, multitasking like crazy.

Have to admit I'm frankly jealous of other bloggers who rejoice in possessing actual readers! I have got to check out some sites that give you advice on how to publicise your blog. Can't go on like this!

At the gym my Performance Index rose to 18 yesterday, after plateauing at 16 four days in a row. My energy levels have been fabulous, and I feel and look like the picture of health.

Have now been off all psych meds for about five weeks and I finally am starting to lose a bit of weight. Another effect of being med-free appears to be that I just don't need anywhere near the same amount of sleep to get by. It isn't insomnia or anything...I just go to sleep say about eleven and then wake about six or earlier. Often only have six hours sleep but I don't feel at all sleep-deprived. When I think of my years on the dreaded Seroquel...always groggy in the morning, 'needing' nine or ten hours!

Saw friends at the cafe this afternoon, and was glad I did...had been wondering how I could get out of it but I actually quite enjoyed it for the first time in a few months. This is a personality issue between me and these two friends. Because I am feeling so good (and working hard at feeling good!) I find it quite hard to be around them, as they are most often not. Today though, being with them did not influence my state of mind at all...which is how it should be I guess. A lot of my social fears are based around the fear of being overwhelmed by others. I've always thought it probably went back to being a child, and being affected by my parents' unhappiness. It's good not to leak your energy out or spring a leak or get drained by others. If I can work out how to stay that way it will be a great discovery.

Take care all! Don't be a stranger...Love, Zoe.

6 comments:

Gianna said...

Gosh, I've slept up to 14 hours a day on my heaviest drug cocktail. Still need a lot but I have a ways to go before coming off completely.

Keep on writing Zoe, it's always a good thing and you probably have more readers than you think.

Anonymous said...

Hey, Good for you reading a blog. I was surfing ...clicking on links from Bipolar Blast and found you!

Anonymous said...

and also click on your blog from link on Psychiatric Survivor

Zoe said...

Well that's good news Anonymous...it's very heartening to have a record number of comments! And thanks Gianna, too, for dropping by and giving encouragement!

polarpaul said...
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polarpaul said...

On encouraging more people to read your blog...

The surest way to get people to read your blog is to read and comment on other people's blogs. You'll always get fewer comments than you make, but that's just life.

On the other hand, you may want to put more effort into other aspects of your life rather than recruiting more people to read your blog.

In any case, never use the number of readers as a gage for the value of your writing.